_{^{Valentine's Day}} = _PERFECT

when I got home from work, I walked into my bedroom and found a vase full of flowers, a singing balloon (it played the temptations... SUGAR PIE HONEYBUNCH... that song), and a box of chocolate donuts (entenmann's= my favorite)...

i started crying when i saw it... it made me soooo happy and surprised

:)

anyways, for vday, i put a red towel on my lamp to create a red moonlit feel in the room... i lined a trail of hershey kisses (red and silver) to my bathroom door, with beautiful music in the background... inside the bathroom, i had a candlelit dinner around my jacuzzi with flowers in the center, and a mantle of hershey kisses again... candles lit all around the tub, a bubble bath, and words "i <3 you" with red kisses on the tile floor... it was perfect

the only thing that almost ruined it? he didnt call me when he left work so i could prepare better... instead he called me when he GOT there... which made me mad because it ruined the whole surprise thing... but he waited outside until i was done, so it didnt ruin it completely...

it was a perfect night

:)

and it was my very first valentine's ever... i'm so happy with how everything turned out.

god i love him

current mood: loved

I've officially moved into the new place... its so gorgeous... my room is HUGE... vaulted ceilings and two beautiful windows, one wall a huge sliding glass door into the backyard... the bathroom in my bedroom is huge... grey marble... two sinks, jacuzzi, stand up shower stall... HUGE walk in closet... im in love with the new place

everything finally kicked in when i went shopping today... bought new pillows and sheets for my bed... but what really made me realize i was finally on my own was when i bought pastas and rice and wrote out my very first check... it felt so good to do something like that...

and im buying a new car... dont know if i mentioned it... 94 mitsubishi eclipse...

 except mine has better wheels and is green... but exactly the same... it's dead sexy... RAWR

so i guess finally life is working out for me... im really happy and im EXTREMELY happy with mike... i can flat out say he's the only person to ever make me feel the way he's made me feel... i've fallen before, but truly never have fallen this hard...

keep in touch guys

Life is... better

I'm a cook at the highest ranking hotel in Daytona Beach. Make good money, especially with the overtime I get on fourteen hour days of work. I've made some friends, mostly friends with my boyfriend.

On Wednesday, this will be the exact five month anniversary of my time in Florida. And come Wednesday, I will have moved four times. How sad is that?

But Wednesday, I will move into this beautiful four bedroom home... There are already some roommates there, one of which is leaving, so now I'm going to rent the room. Kids all my age, although I'm the youngest as usual. I get the master bedroom and bath, with my own jacuzzi... Pretty excited about that. And it's only going to be 500 rent. Not too bad...

I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm considering what courses I might want to take next fall... For four years I knew exactly what I wanted...

Now I'm just confused...

I've been with Mike for three months now... He's my second longest relationship ever. Dave of course being my longest. I miss Dave sometimes. Or at least how he used to be. I can honestly say he was the best boyfriend I've ever had... I love Mike though. I've never loved anyone the way I love him... We've been having our tiffs here and there and it sucks, but yet at the same time I've never cared for anyone like this... and it bothers me... really really bothers me...

Anyways, last night I was lying in bed and I could picture walking down Warwick Ave so clearly as though I were there... and I wasnt... and it sorta makes me sad... I wanna save up some money and come up to Rhode Island for the summer possibly...

Anyone wanna hang out or perhaps throw ideas around???

I miss you guys

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It's been a long time since I last wrote... I suppose I should give a very quick update

as for things being great down here, they're really not... i love my sister, yes... but i have no job, i have no money, i got into a bad accident and my car is beyond affordable repair right now, and im going to have to move back in with my mom and that scares me...

the only good thing in my life is jeff...

it's wierd, too because all of my boyfriends had been really really great guys who cared for me... never once fought or even had a slight disagreement with eachother, but i'd be gone anyways just because i didnt connect with them on an unknown level... and suddenly i get a few assholes one after the other (josh, chris, anthony, nathan)... and it's like WTF? lol

but jeff... he's someone i'm connecting with on EVERY level even if he is 27 and has a three year old son... i was talking to him a month and a half before i even met him... and i thought i loved nathan at the time, so i told jeff i couldnt make any promises on meeting him... but jeff still said he'd be my friend and he even sent me a fedex package just before i drove down here... it was two cameras with pictures of the beach, twenty dollars to develop the cameras, and a bottle of the ocean... he wanted to welcome me properly before i got down there by showing me all i would be seeing... there were even pictures of a sunrise that he woke up early to take... for an hour he constantly took pictures as the sun rised, just for me... it was really sweet

not to mention the fact he came and helped me when my tire blew out and i couldnt drive... he walked twenty minutes to my house, rolling a tire for me

he's done little things for me all of the time to show me he cares... like yesterday, he made some alphabet soup with cut up vegetables and chicken... and when he handed me my bowl, he gave me a spoon... on the spoon written in the alphabets were the words "i love you"... it was absolutely sweet

:)

I can honestly say I've never been so madly and deeply in love. No one else can hold a candle to Jeff's flame. He's beautiful on so many different levels, not to mention that he's the best kisser, too!!!

and p.s... I really miss everyone up in Rhode Island! Don't forget me, cause I still remember you!

If you love something, let it go

If it comes back to you, than you know it is yours forever!

I just wanted to let you know that I will forever love you, Anthony Montalbano. I knew this would have been hard, but God I cannot wait for this pain to go away. It's killing me both inside and out. I so badly wish to hold you tight and never let you go. However, the only thing right here for me are the tears sliding down my cheek at the thought of never being able to hold you again.

I love you with all of my heart, please print this out, and keep it so as that I will continue to be with you for as long as you let me. Please do not toss me in a drawer hidden under clothing, in hopes that your next love will not find them. Please do not tell her that you do not know why you kept them after all these years, and then put them back.

I am praying that this CD works. For it is the last thing I have left of you. I cannot find the stuffed dog you gave me. Perhaps it is packed and I had forgotten. I pray that it is in my car waiting for me to hold it again, because I will not think twice about holding it tight as I sleep… God, I cherish the times we had together. You have meant the world and so much more to me. I love you, Anthony Nat Montalbano

You have my number and my heart. Do not be afraid to use them.

Love always,

Melissa Sue Briggs

P.S… a huge part of me wants to write until there is no more room because I fear that the ending to this letter is the forever ending of us. I miss you so much, and it has only been twenty minutes

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